Since my last oddly self pity-ing post things have changed. I moved back to my parents house in Rochester. While not a upward move, and not really a lateral move either, it was more a necessary move. I’m still unemployed, I will be unemployed for a year in May. Crazy. I seriously cringe and possibly vomit and the thought of being in another cubicle and having a set limit on free time. Fuck the weekends. I need to start playing the lottery.
I’m less depressed and don’t worry about my animal’s safety anymore. On my last couple of days in my old house my room mate (king of the douches) kicked in my door in a drunken rage of idiocy. I had put Mao in there with food and her box to leave the house for some much needed time away. I came home to find the door kicked in and my poor cat in terror. It makes me wonder, how do people get this way? I hope he never breeds.
Anyway, he will never magically turn into a good person, so I, as a good person, decided rather than hating or fighting with him ever again, simply he no longer exists.
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Moving home was peaceful, I have my own space and my own clean bathroom and tub. Mao loves roaming around this seemingly endless new abode. She is more playful and less loud (oddly enough?). She seems more content. I am more content too. While it may have its shares of downs, this move has been positive for me.
I should have very little to complain about.
I need to start being productive.
Things I need to start doing:
1. My thesis – my new topic is on liquor licensing in MI (riveting I know)
2. Apply for jobs – ? I need to find jobs I actually want to do right?
3. blogging more
4. exercising – yes yes yes
5. reading. Not just for school. Even without a tv I watch way too much hulu. its like crack I swear.
I start counseling on Tuesday and I’m nervous. Should I be nervous? I know I want tools to deal with my stress and validation issues, but what else do I want out of this adventure?
I really love my boyfriend, I count my lucky stars everyday I get to be with him. For all his faults, he’s perfect.
I am lucky and full of love.
