You died last night. You had been sick for a little over a month and had been losing weight for a little while. You were not as vocal or playful as you had been for quite a while. You slept more and played fetch less.
You came into my life in fall of 2008. I found you on craigslist and immediately knew you were mine. I picked you up and never let you go. Until now. When I brought you home for the first time you weren’t scared. You walked around like you owned the place and settled on my bed for the night. You loved me so much that you would sit outside the door while I showered and cried until I came out. John said you would cry when I left for work. You wouldn’t go sleep with him, you wanted me to be home. I’m so very glad to be home with you during the last months of your life.
You came into my life when I needed you. You made me feel loved and I spoiled you the best I knew how. You were the light of my life. You slept on me to keep me warm and purred me to sleep. You gently mewed at me in the mornings. Our mornings were my favorite part, your snuggling up next to me and mewing when you felt me move. The sun would hit your face and you looked so beautiful. The mornings were my favorite.
You charmed everyone who met you. People would always comment on your pictures and remark about your markings. Your mews were utter music to my ears. I will never forget you. You were the perfect cat incarnate. You always knew exactly what I needed. You were the perfect snuggle buddy and lap warmer. Your purrs made every single problem seem obsolete. I hope you know how much you meant to me and how much you helped me. I don’t know what I would have done without you.
I feel robbed. You were too young to die. I wish I could have done more. I wish the vet would have figured it out. I wish I would have held you longer, whispered more ‘I love yous.’ I wish I would have given you more tuna, forcefed you less. Had I known I would not see you again I would have been more grateful of our time together.
I know that you are now the ‘Princess of Heaven’ and that you have full understanding of how much I loved you. I know you don’t have any more sickness of pain. I know your purpose in my life is complete. I know you know how much I am hurting.
I remember you loved laying in the sun, tuna, chasing bottle caps, lap lounging, your whale, and many other things that made you so special. You were more than a cat to me, more than my familiar. I know you understand all of this now. I know that you are at peace. I know you know I love you, yet all I want to tell you is how much I love you, how much I miss you.
While I try to fill the hole you left in my life, you will never be replaced. Its unfair of me to think a new cat will be anything like you. I know I only got one chance with you and it was too short. I hope you guide me in to find my next best friend knowing that they have large shoes to fill.
You have helped me in so many ways and I an eternally grateful. I will miss you always and love you forever.
I was lucky to have ever met you. My love, my life.













